10/29/20

1.
Don’t be scared of dipping your toes
into the dark, cold water
the sun will come up eventually and then the water
along with your battles
will no longer shiver.

2.
My English Pointer
an old friend driving 7 hours to see me
beers and seltzers
old friend meeting new friends
a couple prerolls
tons of smiles
a little sadness
my divorce papers arriving
and
work.

3.
you put a new lens on me
not just that but you took my damaged ones off so delicately
without saying a word
you showed me a new color
the color reminds me of a sunset thats not yet red, but a soft
orange
you peeled layers out of me and I let you. I’m sorry if a few
were not what you were expecting
but the color was enough to shed light into what can be
although right now distance and time aren’t as accomodating

4.
I write these poems out of necessity right now. the divorce papers
sit right next to me all in Japanese. A simple sticky note labeled
“sign here” was all that stood out. The envolope it came in has two
new addresses (yours and mine).

Did it hurt when you wrote it down or
was it easy and satisfying? Was anyone with you and I wonder who you have told.

I should return these papers right now, but I just need a few more
drinks until I arrive at the postal annex
and then leave for work.

5. 
   It happens rapidly and consecutively . I get locked into my thoughts
   of what’s happening. I feel sadness, anger, and then
   I look outside and see birds flying in a blanket of blue. That is when I realize
   life moves forward with or without me.