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I think we have all been

a little bit suicidal at some point

In this sometimes long

Sometimes slow

Turbulent but very personal life

And that leads me to think

That we can all get so caught up in

The everyday

That we forget that someone

Could have been gone

If they weren’t strong enough

Even more

It goes to show how much

Human beings carry courage

Through their trauma

Through their addictions

Through their wars

Through it all

We keep choosing to live

But let’s not forget that this life

Is temporary

And that one day

This body will go

And the soul will drift

And what are we but a speck

To the ocean

To the universe?

And what are we

To each other?

How many people have left us

But have been kept

Living in the basements of our

Hearts and minds

Chained down and

Suppressing who we are

Born to be

So release yourself

And release everyone else.

I’ve tried it all

I’ve gone to the park at sunrise

and waited till the sunset

I’ve tried hikes

I’ve tried dating apps

I’ve tried clubs

I’ve tried raving

I’ve tried sleeping with other women

I’ve tried patience

I’ve tried getting out of my bubble

I’ve tried what you used to do

I’ve tried soul searching

I’ve tried letting go

I’ve tried crying

I’ve tried forgiving

I’ve tried AA

I’ve tried molly

I’ve tried shrooms

I’ve tried cocaine from a stranger

I’ve tried and tried

but I still can’t get rid of you

Like a drug that sets in

You can isolate

You can distract

You can do all you want

But it’s not until you surrender

That the suffering will subside